why some [and by some i mean most] human beings are just so fucking nasty and rude! for the life of me, i’ll never fathom why certain souls consciously choose to project their personalities—their lives!— that way! like, people’s identities are seriously delineated from putting others down to hike themselves up? seriously? as though being kind and decent takes effort?! like its a chore?! what the actual fuckedy fuck? that shit boggles my fucking mind.

Moreover, i will NEVER be that mousy, door-mat buffoon that allows themselves to be treated unfairly, take shit from someone who talks down to them, or be spoken to disrespectfully for the bullshit sake of “not wanting to stir up more ‘drama’”. no, fuck that. i hate confrontations too (i mean who the fuck really likes them?); but i will fucking say something to you if you’re rude to me if i didn’t deserve it, i don’t give a fuck if you’re the freaking pope and i had lung failure and you had a bag-full of the last remaining oxygen on earth. today i could have lost my job from telling off a co-worker/not-quite-manager for their constant bullying and disgusting, belittling attitude. i told them they were obnoxious and cruel for putting people down and bashing them, and that they’re despicable for actually getting off on that in whatever fucked up way it is; and the bitch just stood there with her mouth ajar cause she’d never been talked to like that (cause mostly, people are afraid of her—surprise, surprise). yes, this feature in me has gotten me in deep trouble and danger before, but you know what? i’m legit as fuck (br0~) and nothing is more gratifying to me than being true to myself, each and every day. and i love myself over and over and over. i have some real flaws, that’s for fucking sure, but i caress and kiss them and invite them over for tea always, knowing i don’t let ANYONE disrespect me no matter how far up the “important” spectrum they (think they) are. human beings are human beings. no one is born with a gold fucking star lodged in their ass that makes them better or more valuable than the next person.

i think everyone needs to take a nice, long look in the mirror and change whatever nasty tendencies they may have, big or small, for the sake of being more decent to each other— me included, cause i don’t claim to be a saint at all times either. but i sure as fuck am one of the only decent, kind entities walking around and breathing on this earth. i am just so sick of the majority out there, my god! i hope to the heavens my upcoming solitary move— though assuredly in itself will present many more similar situations (douchebags are world-wide)— will present to me more equals and, well,  just more decent fucking people. my faith in humankind slips a little each day, but ironically enough what fortifies me is the tiny shred of hope that is that there are still more honorable, kind, genuine souls out there whose lives will touch mine… cause holy shit i can’t really be the only one.

but for fuck’s sake— i will never, ever, ever understand why people are so nasty.